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[27 Sep 2003|05:02pm]
I have internet!!! GO ME! Yeah, so I'm a dork. Oh well.

Quick update....love my job except for my boss. She's a bitch from hell, but I'm getting used to it and I'm learning to just feed it back to her. I LOVE the people that I work with. I love living here. I wouldn't go back and change anything. I have been fucking busy with work. I have to work every other weekend....which sucks, but hey, it's money right?

As far as other aspects of my life go, I guess I'll leave that hush hush for now. :) Gotta go!
1 skittle|taste the rainbow

Here I am [06 Sep 2003|10:29pm]
Well, I'm back in Jackson for a little visit. I love being in Hattiesburg....being on my own and stuff. It's cool. There are a couple of things that I miss about being here. I miss a person or two also. But one of those people aren't really here, but this is the only place I really get to talk to her.

Oh...I do miss her. I really just do. And I don't get why. Or maybe I do and I'm just scared of saying why I do. Who knows.

I finally got my Brandon Boyd poster framed! It's gonna look so good in my room b/c it's black and white and my room is done in black, white and red. He's hot. Yes, he is. I would have given my right boob to be Ashley when she ran into him at the mall. Well, maybe not that extreme, but ya know....I would have died if I met him...seriously.

But anyway, I'm about to run and see Heather b/c I haven't in FOREVER. Later taters!
taste the rainbow

[16 Aug 2003|09:20am]
[ mood | excited ]

Well guys, this is it. I'm all packed up and waiting for Amber to get back so I can head off to my new home....Hattiesburg, MS. I don't know when I'll be able to get online again, but hopefully it won't be too long.

I'll miss you, Christal. Take care of yourself first and everybody else second. You hold a special place in my heart and you won't be forgotten....believe that. I'm sorry for all of the hurt I've caused you and things life has caused you. You're a GREAT person with a big heart and a lot to give. Just remember that. You rock!! :) I'll miss you lots. Write me anytime....

To everyone else....Goodbye. I'll talk to you when I do.


taste the rainbow

[14 Aug 2003|09:38pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

What the hell is this I hear about New York, Michigan, Ohio, and part of Canada losing all power?!? That just totally kinda ruined my mood. I probably won't get to talk to you anymore before I leave. And then, who knows when I'll get to talk to you...geez.

Okay, well I'll be leaving this weekend. I'm excited and scared at the same time. More excited than scared though. :) Not like anybody cares. Not like anybody reads this shit. There's like ONE person that reads my journal, and I know exactly who that is. :) Kay, I have shite to do so I'm going now. I'll post a little "goodbye" before I move this weekend.

1 skittle|taste the rainbow

[13 Aug 2003|08:34pm]
[ mood | busy ]

Okay, so I'm FINALLY almost done painting everything. Geez. I'm glad I told them that I wasn't starting work until Tuesday. I'm going to need Monday to friggin rest dude!! And I've still got to go pack some more shit up in my room.

Yeah, so I found out that it's more than likely going to rain this weekend, so...guess what that means. U-haul time. Yeah. Suck my ass. That is just not cool. Oh well. It's gotta get done this weekend. I've gotta have my stuff b/c I'm starting a job next week. My genius of a mom was like "why don't you just take a sleeping bag?". Uh, okay, are you sure? I have to be able to actually SLEEP if I'm going to be working full time. Sleeping bag my ass. My shit is getting moved this weekend. I don't care what I hafta do.

On a side note, I'm watching the Cosby Show and it's the best. Gotta go now. Busy girl. :)

To: You
It's fine. I understand. Do what you hafta do to make things better for yourself. You are still one of my main concerns everyday no matter what.

1 skittle|taste the rainbow

[13 Aug 2003|03:43pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

Jesus Christ. That's it. That's all I have to say. Jesus.

taste the rainbow

YAAAAAAY [11 Aug 2003|10:15pm]
I had two job interviews Friday. One with Remax (a real estate company) and they wanted me to come back this Friday for a second interview, and the other one with Pine Belt Vet Hospital. Uhh....let's guess which one I got. YEAH! That's right. The animal hospital one. I'm so frigging excited. I start a week from tomorrow which means I'm gonna be busy as HELL and I'm gonna try to find some time to get online this week. I've gotta get my shit packed for moving this weekend. This is it. I'm finally getting out of Jackson. Finally getting out of my PARENTS' house. I will be on my own, paying all of my own shit, NO rules at all (not that I have many now), and absolutely no one to answer to. You could say I'm pretty excited. Pretty DAMN excited actually. I just can't believe I got the job that I wanted and not some rinky dink ass job that I had to just settle for. They're going to train me to be a vet tech and all of that shit. DAMN. I got so lucky with this job. Thank God for that moron girl that quit working there after a week. She couldn't hack it I guess. Animal hospitals aren't for everybody though. I love it. :) Anyway, gotta go take care of my Zach-y poo and see what the hell is going on with him and David now. I swear....gay guys are more dramatized than girls. Damn.

G'night. :)

P.S. I've missed talking to you lately.
taste the rainbow

[03 Aug 2003|10:35am]
[ mood | calm ]

I have got the worst gas I have had in a LONG time. I mean, seriously. Of course, I did eat Mexican food Thursday night AND yesterday afternoon. Geez. I went out with the people that I like from work. Which is like....3 people. Anyway, back to this Mexican food thing. I was just thinking....NOTHING will EVER beat the Mexican food I ate in Michigan. Holy fucking hell....all me and Christal could do was lay in bed and whine. Rough times.....good memories. :)

1 skittle|taste the rainbow

[31 Jul 2003|11:13pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Hmm...she slipped and said something she didn't mean to I believe. It's okay though. :)

I love this FRIGGING CD so much!! Christal rocks. Seriously. Anyway, I'm sleepy and going to bed now. Goodnight.

1 skittle|taste the rainbow

[29 Jul 2003|11:56pm]
[ mood | content ]

Well, it looks like things might be halfway looking up now. If I could just get a damn job in Hattiesburg things would be set. Geez.....I'll work on that tomorrow afternoon though. I'm sleepy now.

I wish I had somebody to cuddle with. I miss cuddling.

Goodnight everyone. :)

3 skittles|taste the rainbow

[29 Jul 2003|03:52pm]
[ mood | surprised ]

I just sat here and said "fuck" about 800 times. The reason why I said it will be left to me I guess. I'm an IDIOT. I mean...seriously. I can't post anything in LiveJournal I guess.


taste the rainbow

[28 Jul 2003|10:17pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Hi. :) My name is Amanda. I'm 23 and I'm FINALLY about to move out. I live in Jackson, MS and I hate it with a passion. I'll soon be living in Hattiesburg, MS which is much better considering that the girl I have a thing for lives there also. All of my friends live there too. I actually already have an apartment there that I'm paying for, but I don't have a job so I can't actually move yet unfortunately. It's kinda scary....moving, but I don't care. I'm 23 and it's been time for me to move out. Me and my mom don't get along. It's almost like I'm 17 again. Anyway, I'm new. And that was my newbie entry. :)

1 skittle|taste the rainbow

[28 Jul 2003|12:39am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

Okay...so this weekend rocked. Thursday night we went to Razoo's and I saw "the girl". She just rocks. And she's just like whoa beautiful...and makes me sick. Okay, then Friday night I got surprised by Gabi and Zach coming over and they said they were taking me out to eat. And Gabi bought me the Wish Bear b/c she had made fun of me the day before for liking Care Bears, so that was to make up for that. :) The going out thing was cool except Amber got jealous b/c..uh..she wasn't invited. Oops. Not my fault. I didn't plan the shit out. Anyway, we went and got David and went to Crescent City. It was so good. My meal got paid for. :) That was awesome. And I got hit on by the waitress. Okay...it's semi-usual for me to get hit on by guys, especially considering the shirt I had on, but by a girl was just weird. But I didn't mind. Made me feel good. :) I don't think Gabi appreciated it for some reason. HAHA! I don't know why...hmm...anyway, so after we ate we hung out at David's for a little while then Zach took Gabi home and David took me to Amber's. Amber just happened to get home at the same time we did. Weird. Then last night we went to Razoo's. Nothing unusual there. Except I met 3 girls that were totally cool. Amber got their number so we're so gonna hang out sometime. Their names..Amber, Shelly, and Carla. Amber had emo glasses. Carla looked like Kelly Clarkson (oh my). And Shelly looked like Amber's old roommate except she wasn't a bitch, and she was prettier too. So..yeah. I had a good weekend.

One more thing to add to my weekend. Met another girl that was with Marcus and she kept talking about some woman that was a "dyke" except she wasn't a dyke. She wasn't manly. Maybe she was a lesbian. Straight people suck sometimes. They just don't know. I'm not manly and I get pissed if you call me a dyke. Lesbian does not equal dyke. Hate to inform her not so pretty little head of that. Me and David did not appreciate it. Hell, Amber didn't even appreciate it! Ignorant whore.

On a side note...I love it when people make it out to look like I'm a heartless bitch. I mean..yeah. Love it. Maybe I'm a bitch, but I am NOT a heartless one. Come on. Thanks. Plus, usually I'm only a bitch toward guys!

Goodnight. :)

1 skittle|taste the rainbow

[23 Jul 2003|07:36pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Okay...if my mom could bitch at me a littlemore....I swear. She's such a bitch sometimes. She needs to lighten up. Maybe since she's so pissed off all the time anyway I should just spring the good news of me loving women on her huh? I swear. She's driving me INSAAAAAAANE!!!!! That's okay. Tomorrow is Thursday and I'll be going to H'burg just like almost every other weekend. Hattiesburg makes everything better. Actually the people there make everything better. And I get to hang out with Gabi FINALLY. So that'll be cool too. And David, and Zac, and maybe the other Zac...and oh yeah, can't forget my 'Ber baby. :) Okay, lemme just go back to what my mom actually did. No..nevermind...it's too long to type. Put it this way...there is a place in our driveway that she thinks is "her" parking place and if anybody else parks there then she goes crazy. So I parked there when I got home from work thinking (and hoping) that she would be going to church, but no. She comes home and starts bitching about it. I even told her that I thought she wasn't coming home that early,and she still bitches. I mean, if it was actually something to bitch about then it would be fine, but that's just ri-goddamn-diculous. Don't ya think?

Someone kill me? Thanks. :)

I'm goin to buy a CD. That usually helps a little bit.

I've gotta get outta here...I'm going insane.....

taste the rainbow

Dramaaaaaaaa [21 Jul 2003|06:30pm]
Drama....it's everywhere. I can't go anywhere without drama. I SWEAR. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love my friends. But is there really that much to be dramatic about? Really. I listen to my friends and I LOVE to help them out, but when I give you advice on what I think you should do, take it or leave it. I'm not a goddamn shrink. Shit. I have enough problems of my own. I sound like such an ass huh? Oh well.
1 skittle|taste the rainbow

[21 Jul 2003|12:06am]
[ mood | bitchy ]

I am in this mood. Here, but not here. We've all been there I know. I hate my whole existence right now. I think I've been like this one other time in my life, and I hated it. And now, here I go again. BUT, I will pull myself out of it, just like I did last time. I've just got to get a few things in my life rolling and I'll be okay. So many things are just shitty right now. And a few people are just shitty right now. Well...maybe not a few, but maybe a couple of people. I just can't deal.

I actually thought about calling Heather today. What the hell. I NEVER think about calling Heather. Then I remembered how she is...and there's a reason for why I remembered that. Someone reminded me of her today and I didn't like it. Then I remembered why I stopped calling her. The person that reminded me of her is nothing like Heather...just something they said reminded me of something she would have said and it just wasn't cool. Or maybe I just think they're nothing like her...anyway, it made me shudder. Just b/c of the person that said it. I was thinking "God...please don't turn out to be like her. I'll die." Anyway, I'm rambling. But I guess technically that's okay since it's my journal huh? I mean, it is for me to vent and stuff like that. And it's not like anybody actually reads this shit anyway. Besides maybe one or two people. Fuck this. I'm going to bed. I'm tired of being me for today.

taste the rainbow

[20 Jul 2003|08:14pm]
[ mood | sad ]

Just some self-pity stuff. You don't have to read if you don't want to. :)
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That's all. I'm going to take a shower or something. I'm in the mood for the whole let's-see-how-hot-I-can-get-the-water-before-I-burn-my-skin-off thing. Sounds fun, huh? Any takers? Huh? Huh? No? Okay...off I go.

taste the rainbow

[19 Jul 2003|06:01pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Today I saw pictures of Christal's hair. I mean....geez. It looks SO GOOD. I'm totally impressed. :) I wanna get my hair cut now.

I'm so bored. I'm seriously thinking about driving to Seminary tonight. It would take an hour to get there, but shit...I am so bored. Gabi wanted me to come and hang out with her and Zac and David. Gabi is cool. She's definitely somebody I want to be good friends with b/c she's not like most people I know. They wanted me to go to the coast with them tomorrow but I have no money!! I can't do that. I'm mad b/c I really want to go! Oh well...even if I don't hang out with them this weekend I'll be with them next weekend b/c me, Gabi, Zac, David, Amber and (hopefully) Jason will all go out. Jason might have to work. And in that case it'll probably just be me, Gabi, Zac, and David unless Amber wants to feel left out....being the only straight person and all. LOL!!! Anyway, I need to take a shower so I'm out. Later taters!!

taste the rainbow

[13 Jul 2003|10:42am]
I was in bed last night about to go to sleep....when this video came on. It was Jewel's new song "Intuition". Can I just say how disgusted I was?? Honestly. That was beyond ridiculous. I used to love her. Yeah. Yeah. Ridiculous.
taste the rainbow

[12 Jul 2003|12:26am]
[ mood | relaxed ]

Well....didn't get to talk to her tonight, but I did today..so I guess that'll do. I do miss her...and I hate saying that b/c I know that it's wrong for me to say that since we just broke up, but I can't help it. I miss her like I would any of my other friends that lived far away...except it's just...different... because it's her.

Ugh...whatever...she understands what I'm saying......

she always has.

1 skittle|taste the rainbow

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